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Name: Matthew
Gender: Male
Interests: I like Computers, working on them, building them, science fiction novels, and sharing my faith
Expertise: not dying, it's amazing how many times over I should be dead and yet for some reason I'm still left to linger on.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
2/23/2006
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| So... I wonder, does anyone come here any more? I mean, I don't even come here anymore. Xanga has become far too musty and full of people I don't want around. If you want to keep up with me, check my facebook for a link to my "new" blog. Though I hardly have time to update it with school and the amazing Amy (still dating me after 19 months, the woman has the patience of a planet)
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| So (there's my favorite word for starting a post) too often whenever we
talk about relationships people go "ewww... mushy = gross!" but let's
think about it, k? God has created us in His image. That means both our
physical appearance is the likeness of God and our emotional make-up is
also in His likeness. So it is no wonder to know that we serve a
patient, yet jealous God, that we serve, a righteous and caring God.
And most of all we serve a God who loves, yes loves, us.
So I will
allow no remarks about mushy grossness today when I say, most
unashamedly, that I love you Amy Grace. Not because today is a day
celebrating hyped up emotions and rampant consumerism, but because God
has placed in my heart the knowledge of what love truly is.
To brag about my Amy let me tell everyone why I love her.
She's patient with me. Everyone knows I get things mixed up and turned
all around in my head, but she understands what I'm going for and is
patient when I say things weird.
She's kind. She places my own
needs before her own and looks out for my health, never demanding more
time but encouraging me to pursue my school work and sleep.
She’s
never jealous about when I have to be around other women for work or
school but rests securely in the knowledge that I love her. Nor is she
jealous for my time when I have church apart from her, never demanding
from me more time than I can give.
She doesn’t brag about any of her amazing abilities but compliments others and considers them better than herself.
She is neither arrogant nor vain about her beauty (of which she has
plenty to spare) but simply is herself and her beauty shines forth.
She doesn’t seek her own wants and needs, but rather considers my own and my desires and dreams.
On the few times we’ve had an argument she is not quickly provoked
(though we have both eventually become provoked, let’s be honest), but
tries at first to cool an angry word with a gentle one.
She’s quick to forgive and does so completely. She doesn’t hold a wrong suffered against me for always, but forgets it.
Do you see where I’m coming from here folks?
Amy practices that 1 Corinthians 13 love, the love that refers not just
to romantic love, but also to the brotherly love we are to have for all
believers.
And yes, Amy is beautiful, more so than I ever could
have hoped for. But her outward beauty is only so captivating because
she loves God first and you can see it from her unclouded smile and her
mesmerizing eyes.
So yes, on this day which we celebrate love. Let
us remember the love God has for us and demonstrated to us on the Cross
while we hated Him. And let’s remember the love we can enjoy now with
one another having been freed from the bondage of sin.
And let me say without shame “I love you, Amy Jo Grace” Happy Valentine’s Day | | |
| Wow long time since I've written here, eh? (double wow! I didn't start the post off with so!) So, let's talk.
School starts on Tuesday, very exicted. I did really well last semester, just finished an on-line course that I got an A+ in (score!), am about to finish up all my work for my NT survey mini-mester I just did, and am looking forward to the coming semester.
What's on my plate? I'm seriously considering swaping from chinese to spanish. It's frustrating cause I can only take one language at DBU and I want to learn Chinese, but in the unlikely event that I don't one day do some missions work over there I know that Spanish will definately be used. I have in fact been able to use it this past winter break talking with a spanish speaker in Illinios (weird) and a last semester witnessing to a spanish man who's car broke down and I gave him a lift. Spanish is also the more readidly profitable language to me. what to do, what to do.
I have swapped from being a Teacher to a Computer Science major. I've discovered that it's easier to get a teaching degree tacked onto the end than go for a teaching major (plus I've discovered teaching classes are way boring).
Things are going really great between Amy and I. We've had a few fights over the (almost) 3 months we've been dating and I mention it only because I've learned that we handle fights very well. We communicate and are open and get the problem solved. Thinking back over "relationships" I've had in the past, it amazes me the degree of shelfishness I've encountered in women who bottle up and care only for themselves. The worst case being in an instance where the other party knew her brother's life was in danger and he needed to be confronted but she refused to leave her comfort zone. Amazing! To choose personal comfort over your brother's life (as a side note, last I heard the brother was still in the bad situation).
Anyways, that brings up an interesting thing I've noticed. Fear is the destroyer of lives. In the Bible we are told that we are not given a spirit of fear, but of strenght, courage, and so on. Had sad it is to check in on my old friends and see that they are living a life of fear! To seek the continual comfort of what they have always known for fear of discovering something bigger and larger and more amazing than life itself! To ignore the truth that is clearly presented for the sake of believing that their mental image a person is true. Pathetic and worthy of pity.
Well, that was a bit of a tangent. I'm off to write an 8 page paper. Hope everyone is doing well. I hope to start writting here everyonce in a while again soon on different biblical topics designed to help those young in the faith. Sadly I find that I rarely get to do this when I plan it due to college. We'll see.
Oh and things are really amazing with Amy. To think that I ever desired to be with anyone but her (especially when considering 90% of those I've been in psuedo-relationship with before were living in fear) makes me laugh! Thanks for being great Amy!
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| So it's been... meh a pretty long time (for me at least) since I last updated this thing. Not that much really to talk about guys. I guess I've always used this thing to be a bit theraputic and now... well things are amazing now so there's not really much I need to write out and ask for prayer support in.
School's coming to a close and I'm doing well in half my classes. I'm a little worried about Chinese and my Teaching class. The first because there are so many words to memorize in EVERY single sticking class. It is excesively hard to keep up there and I understand languages pretty well. The second because the teacher is frustratingly nebulous. I can't ever figure out what she wants or how to do it.
The good news is I should easily pass O.T. Survey and I've come a long way in Calculus and have a pretty good feeling about it. I worry about how it will all turn out if I fail even a single class.... I worry a lot, but I'll just have to have trust God to provide and do the best I can until then (I'm REALLY worried).
In other news there are two more points of interest I'd appriciate prayers for.
The first is that I'm prayerfully considering going to China this summer, but there are a few things that might stand in the way of that. The first being cash. It will cost a good amount of money to go. The good news is it's only half of what would normally cost and the other good news being that they'll help me earn the money. The requirements to get in, however, are difficult, so just be praying that God leads and that I'll follow.
The second thing is I need to decide whether or not to continue to pursuing an education major or swap to Computer Science. It's a pretty big decision and... yeah.
Thanks all!
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| So... today was the day Amy and I have been going out for a month. We went out for lunch impromptu to Chedders and that was fun. Then once she got off work we went out to Grapevine Mills where I was gonna surprise her with what the date was gonna be, but we decided not to do my plan and went to go see "The Prestige." The movie was pretty good, one of those ones that played with your head a little. I was slightly disapointed in the end only because the last trick wasn't real, it left the realm of reality and became sci-fi. It was also slightly hard to follow in the beginning.
However, the company was what made the evening really great. I thuroughly enjoy Amy's company. She made it an awesome 1 month!
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